Christmas is supposed to be the season of joyfulness, giving, family, festivities, all round good cheer.
And yet, when I was told that the theme for our December duologues would be 'Christmas', an entirely different feeling was evoked.
For several years now Christmas has brought with it an overarching sense of dread.
It's not that the extended family are horrid and the thought of spending another minute with them is just too much to bear. It's not even the hypocrisy of Christmas that greets you when you enter a shopping centre any day after September 1.
I suppose it's the culmination of
Have I forgotten anything?
For the past decade my sister and I have tried to take the weight of some of these preparations off the shoulders of our mother as we had time off after school, after uni, after exams ended to write the necessary cards, start the ridiculous amounts of baking.
Unfortunately all this means is that the dread of Christmas has simply spread. Now it falls on my shoulders in addition to my mother's and is unlikely to shift any time soon.
The two years I lived in London were some of the more enjoyable Festive seasons I can remember; family free, hassle free. Just food, alcohol and the ability to do exactly what you want, when you want (provided you were happy not to go anywhere but enjoy what you had around you)
Writing a 10 minute duologue, this is the direction in which I was inextricably pulled; the unutterable delight in the possibility of a Christmas at home but with no family and none of the usual prelude.
Perhaps it is a wild dream...
And yet, when I was told that the theme for our December duologues would be 'Christmas', an entirely different feeling was evoked.
For several years now Christmas has brought with it an overarching sense of dread.
It's not that the extended family are horrid and the thought of spending another minute with them is just too much to bear. It's not even the hypocrisy of Christmas that greets you when you enter a shopping centre any day after September 1.
I suppose it's the culmination of
- writing dozens of christmas cards to people you haven't seen in so long or have seen so recently that there is really nothing to say
- cleaning the house and garden if we're the ones fortunate enough to host Christmas this year.
- making the christmas cake and trying not to eat all of the glace cherries before the cake is made
- buying meaningful presents that people actually want for every member of the family.
- deciding upon something a little different to cook for the Christmas day lunch.
- deciding where to go for the Christmas eve picnic.
- deciding what nibbles to take for Christmas eve
- making the innumerable desserts that Christmas wouldn't be complete without.
- doing some of Granddad's shopping for him
Have I forgotten anything?
For the past decade my sister and I have tried to take the weight of some of these preparations off the shoulders of our mother as we had time off after school, after uni, after exams ended to write the necessary cards, start the ridiculous amounts of baking.
Unfortunately all this means is that the dread of Christmas has simply spread. Now it falls on my shoulders in addition to my mother's and is unlikely to shift any time soon.
The two years I lived in London were some of the more enjoyable Festive seasons I can remember; family free, hassle free. Just food, alcohol and the ability to do exactly what you want, when you want (provided you were happy not to go anywhere but enjoy what you had around you)
Writing a 10 minute duologue, this is the direction in which I was inextricably pulled; the unutterable delight in the possibility of a Christmas at home but with no family and none of the usual prelude.
Perhaps it is a wild dream...